Secret Marianne behavior: I have a note on my phone *just* for Grey’s Anatomy quotes.
And last week I got this gem.
“I can see now that constantly trying to fix us is the thing that has been killing me slowly. And I don’t want to do it anymore. I don’t want to fix it or fix us anymore. Maybe instead of loving you so hard, I should be myself for a while. I should love me.”
O.M.G. I started to reflect on how many times I’ve tried to fix, save, or change something that simply wasn’t working.
Sometimes we get so caught up in fixing the broken we lose sight of us. And we don’t realize the thing we are trying to resuscitate is the exact thing that is killing us, slowly.
We carry the weight of things that aren’t ours to own. We make excuses for behavior that is damaging. We don’t accept what it is…it’s broken. And sometimes we need to simply let it be broken as opposed to cutting ourselves trying to put it back together.
Instead of giving our life blood to something that drains us, what would happen if we simply surrendered? What if, instead of giving our precious breath to that which can’t be resuscitated, we simply gave up?
What if you recognized how tired you are of trying to fix, and you decided to stop? What would it look like if you didn’t fight, or try? What if you surrendered?
I’m willing to bet most of you reading this will have a current situation immediately flood your brain. And now my challenge to you…if that’s true, won’t you think about simply giving up, giving in, and just surrendering?
